My own personal journey with aggressive experimental cervical cancer treatment in 2003 initially caused the disability with my legs and back. Since then, treatment saved my life, yet I have been experiencing chronic pain and a balance issue.
Also, I have Neuropathy in my feet, which has caused falls and has caused me to break my right leg on several occasions. Just this past month, I had to have a metal “IM Nail” put in my leg after an accident a couple months ago. Honestly, during all this, I learned just how strong I truly am!
I am proud to say that through my spiritual growth during the last few months, while I dug deep to, “Become Dragon Strong!”
No matter what I have faced in my life or been forced to accept from “life” itself. My spirit animal has helped me discover and embrace my “inner dragon”. I have always been “Dragon Strong” during my own struggle to heal my mind, body, soul, and spirit from all I faced.
My inner healing power has opened my eyes to the personal struggles others face, as I began finding my spiritual path which has led to helping others who need it. Mostly, I encourage people to write or talk about what’s bothering them.
Losing my twin brother, Thomas in Feb. 2021, broke my heart in two. However, I have to be honest in my heart I knew I was fighting for him to get Compassionate Release to die free from his prison cell. He spent 15 years after getting caught in Florida selling 10 oxycodone and refusing to smith.
So, he was granted the Compassionate Release but was offered cancer treatment as well, which he chose to take before his release. His heart was to weak and he passed away before I could get the bear hug he promised me yet I feel it daily now.
On Feb 28th, 2021, I broke my leg and lost my mom by the morning of March 1st, 2021 and my heart was friggin crushed, as I had to make two funeral arrangements and pay for their final expenses which was not cheap.
After some pain with my leg situation and misunderstandings with others, I now have a better relationship with my little brother. I do pray we will stay close and find a way through the changes we face together. I plan to do my best to stay healthy and build my life into what I want it to be, no matter what.
I have a writing career to rebuild and many other things I will be doing, as I recover since I can finally walk again. Change involves growing and growing up is sometimes painful, especially as we lose those we love. Soon, we meet new loved ones who become family.
May your painful changes inspire you to do what is best for you, as you grow into your own new normal which I have with help from my best friend whom
I love endlessly. I do pray this beautiful life continues, even as my heart becomes sad hearing my mom’s voice or feeling Thomas’ bear hug me from beyond the veil.
Everyone makes mistakes in life, especially when you are living with an active addiction of any kind. One misstep or bad choice will cause you to feel worthless to everyone around you.
This is the exact time when you will need to embrace the friends and family member’s who love and support you.
Reach out to these faithful loved ones and be truthful about how your life is becoming unmanageable and messy due to your drug or drink of choice.
Additionally, you will need to seek out your God or your higher power, since you will be entering recovery for drugs or alcohol which is terrifying at first. These courageous first steps will allow you a second chance to build the life you truly want.
Start by getting professional help for the mental health issues and your addictions. You may learn that you are actually self- medicating due to an unaddressed anxiety issue or a serious depression problem. Honestly, you even find the strength to begin a new journey in recovery.
Next, find a local Narcotics Anonymous or Alcoholics Anonymous group to free become a member of in your community. There are many different types of recovery groups on Facebook, as well as recovery websites with their own private online support communities.
Be truthful about needing help with an active addiction and any mental issues you may be facing. Chase recovery everyday and soon you’ll be able to hold your head up with joy surrounding your heart.
Lifestyle changes are hard and painful at first, but soon you will become stronger with each step you take. You are walking a new journey that will require you to push yourself beyond your personal comfort zone.
Embrace the strength that you will unleash with each new step you face, as you walk the path of recovery from the brutal snare of addiction. Each small victory will lead you to a life that is full of big triumphs daily. Hold your head up high, because you are winning the battle against your addictions and yourself.
Your addiction is not like your sister or your brother’s addiction, because it is tailor-made for you. As your becoming sober, you will be forced to decide how you will clean up the mess you created. Each day, you will find the courage to dream again, especially once you learn to believe in yourself again.
Many times, you will find that you are not missing the craziness that the demons of addiction brought to your life. Maybe you will forgive yourself for the bad choices you made. Only you can make your life manageable by starting to take each step that leads to a life filled with joy and peace.
Start taking each step daily as you begin your path to recovery and redemption. You won’t gain everyone’s forgiveness, but do your best and keep moving even when you have a setback or a delay. Keep going and you will learn new ways to cope with life’s disappointments.
Keep telling yourself, “Your Past Does Not Define You!”
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Many times people will take you wrong whether over texting or even face to face, because of how they perceive what you are saying. Unfortunately, you can’t change the way someone reacts to your communications or actions. You can control how you react to anything that they say to you or how they act toward you. Don’t participate in their craziness, by just not talking to them or quickly walking away from the situation.
Never allow someone to ruin your peace, because they have misunderstood what you have texted them or have spoken to them. The negativity will destroy you and cause you to second guess who you are, because they have to see you as the bad guy. Perception is a killer of relationships, but you can try to help them understand but most of the time they won’t listen. So, let that shit go, walk away and keep moving because their opinion means nothing to you and your life.
If they are your partner, take a break and then try to communicate again but sometimes it is just not worth the damn battle. They may get stuck it one train of thought, which becomes a thorn in the relationship and it may grow into a divider that you cannot climb over. Suck it up, keep focused on your goals and don’t react to the petty comments and the bullshit that they will throw at you. Be real and know that you did your best, in order to convey your thoughts, but it was perceived wrong and you cannot change anyone but you!
Sometimes, life can seem like it does nothing but rain on you, whether it is your finances or your health. It will seem like a damn hurricane is brewing and your holding on for dear life. However, look past the blinding rain and you will see a beautiful rainbow forming in the distance. Stay focused on that rainbow and don’t give up! Each tiresome step will bring you so much closer to the goal that you have set for yourself.
Never let anyone tell you that you are weak or that you are giving up, because you are not doing things the way that they think you should. Honestly, they cannot see what you see, so keep your eyes wide open and keep focused on saving money or changing the way you eat. Whatever your goal is…go at it hard no matter how much rain comes at you because that rainbow is forming. So, focus and dig deep, because you can do anything that you have set your mind too!
Keep your eyes on the goal or rainbow that is ahead of you, but always be aware of distractions which will try to pull you away from your original goal. More rain will enter your life and you will feel defeated; yet don’t lose heart over the setbacks that you will definitely face. Instead, refocus and find that rainbow once again and keep striving to reach it. Before you know it, you will have reached your goal and the rain will have moved while leaving beautiful flowers in its path.